On Global Consciousness
Apr 8th
Reality is a creation of my own doing. I create every movement of body, every image of my eyes, and every thought in my head. It really hits home when you realize that indeed there is only a single consciousness, that we all share, and that dictates all reality. What is even more of a humbling thought the realization that indeed, I am not alone. Even though we share the global consciousness, that doesn’t make us the sole creators of the overall reality. In fact, there is no “us” or “I” really, that is just a side effect of our memory.
As of this point, I’m still trying to grasp the concept of being one, but yet separate, at the same time. The angle I keep on approaching the subject is from the point of view of experiences. Because I have my own sensory organs and perceptions, and I save these in a memory, it feels like there is an identity of “I” due to the generated long line of “personal” experiences. The “thing” actually experiencing and creating those perceptions and events is the global consciousness. Having this said, even if one can experience global awareness, the memory attached with the personal experiences still exists. Therefor, it is conceivable to experience the global consciousness but revert back to the identity of “I” simply due to the fact that there is a body with a long line of memories.
Addition
Apr 7th
Why is it that we have based our whole mathematical and scientific endeavors on the ideas of addition. Indeed, looking back on my education, all that I’ve really learned from math is how to add. Once I learned the basic principle, I added negative numbers, added numbers multiple times, added negative numbers multiple times, learned the concept of a limit to describe integration or the sum of infinitesimally small chucks of numbers, etc.
To me, we use the concept of addition because we see finite numbers of things in our daily lives. For example, it was convenient to look and say, “… i need 4 bags of corn seed… you owe me three chickens for my cow…” Out of these finite things, arithmetic was formed and the concept of numbers were born. I’m not a history expert, but I’d say that mostly every branch of mathematics and science came after the invention of tallying numbers.
We should be basing our mathematics and science off of probabilities, as new quantum mechanics and natural behavior shows. The one concept that I have a hard time letting go is the fact that all natural processes eventually revert to the Gaussian distribution. Doesn’t this seem a bit strange? And we wonder why our linear systems won’t fit every system. It is like going from classical physics to quantum mechanics. Classical physics is simply the limit of quantum mechanics as probabilities become ‘certain.’ I feel like a lot of problem could be solved if we took a step back, really analyzed the way that we perform math and create models, and start a new framework that could fit a larger vocabulary of concepts and ideas, rather than just simply tallying numbers. Lets think of possibilities, not certainties.
Running Away my Thoughts
Apr 1st
The world as I know it is extremely alive and ever changing. The more I try to grasp the rhythm and make sense of the world around me, the more it slips through my finger tips. For example, most days I go for a run, sometimes at night and sometimes during the day.
At night, I often feel alive and inspirational. The coldness is invigorating and the crisp air feels good in the lungs. My mind is clear, my pace is moderate. I run, picturing the great thinkers of the past looking up at the the same stars in which I gaze. Soldiers, philosophers, explorers, mathematicians, and mystics; everyone has gazed at the same stars.
It is wondrous how we have formulated ideas about the largest objects known to man, how we could realize that no, we are not the center of the universe. What an ego blow. If I had lived in that era, I would have denied it from the beginning as well.
What am I denying today in my life? What ideas have I put at the center of my universe?
My runs during the day are quite the opposite. The warmth of the sun, the smell of the grass in the breeze, and the world alive around me with life that is constantly in the cycle of retaining and expelling energy. It brings my body into a more animalistic mode, as I feel alive with every warm breath that I take. My natural instincts are excited, where my mind and body work as one to sustain the endurance to work through the hardships of the road and sun. Instead of being inspirational, I’m in survival mode with every thought being focused to sustain my body in the harsh environment and heat. After these runs, its almost hard to go back to everyday life, where our minds do most of the work and our physical bodies are there to manipulate the objects that make our lives easier.
I guess the bottom line I’m trying to come down to is the fact that my mind and body appear to be so separate at times that I often think to myself that they are indeed separate. It is hard to constantly stay focused and filter out my typical behaviors in which I create the same reality each day. Creating new experiences is probably the best feeling in the world, and I wish that I could constantly keep my state of mind and body open to the creation. Every time, however, I get close to reaching full awareness or comprehension, where my body and mind really fall into the same category of full consciousness, I lose it.
What the Bleep do we Know!?
Mar 5th
Today I finished the book based off the documentary What the Bleep do we Know!?. Though it was though provoking, it seemed to make great leaps and connections based off of circumstantial experiments and wishy-washy theories. I enjoyed the read due to the writers dumbing down most of the physics and other concepts for the average reader’s comprehension, but at times wished that they would delve much deeper than they did.
As a recent newcomer to modern physics and quantum mechanics, the physics concepts presented did not seem at all as revolutionary as they presented them, but the summary of the way that the brain works was stimulating. It allowed me to think deeper into the way that I formulate my thoughts and how I interpret the sensory information that I am receiving from the world around me. It also brought into question alot of the beliefs that I took for granted prior to watching the movie and reading the book. What are the paradigms that I take for granted? Why are we here?